I was born into a highly secular society and raised in an irreligious and agnostic family background. I have been an atheistic materialist and naturalist for most of my life until my early forties, and was only interested in nature and natural sciences. Due to my popular science interest in modern physics (cosmology, relativity theory, and quantum mechanics) I came to realize fundamental philosophical problems concerning time, causality, laws of nature, and the effectiveness of mathematics. I also realized the hard problem of consciousness, the problem of diachronic personal identity (self), the problem of reason (incl. intentionality / aboutness), the problem of universals, the standard problem of free will, and the problem of objective morality, as well as the ultimate question „why is there anything rather than nothing“. This led to a spiritual journey spanning about 15 years in search for a coherent world view, which implied the exploration of very different approaches like metaphysical nihilism (Daniel Dennett, Alex Rosenberg, Gary Drescher, Peter Unger), neo-pythagorean ontic structural realism or mathematical monism (Max Tegmark), earth-based spirituality like pantheistic neopaganism (hylozooism, animism), Eastern philosophies like Daoism and non-dualism (Advaita Vedanta), neoperennial integral thought (Ken Wilber), Whiteheadian panentheistic process thought, Bergsonian and Nietzschean flux, information-theoretic panpsychism (Giulio Tononi, Donald Hoffman) and cosmopsychism (Philip Goff, Ludwig Jaskolla), quantum idealism (Amit Goswami, Alex Vikoulov, Johanan Raatz and Michael Jones from Inspiring Philosophy), Neoplatonism with objective idealism (Timothy Sprigge, John Leslie, Bernardo Kastrup), and classical theism (Edward Feser). I also studied natural theology and classical apologetics, as well as Biblical exegesis and history, and thoroughly evaluated the pro and con arguments for Christianity, esp. Roman Catholic and Reformed theology (just for the record: no, I was not converted by my wife, who was rather a Cafeteria Catholic and "Chreaster"). My current views are an idiosyncratic synthesis of several of the above approaches.
My "conversion" to an anti-materialist world view did not involve any faith in holy scriptures, but was purely based on reason and a careful critical evaluation of empirical evidence and philosophical arguments. However, I am meanwhile convinced that even without sophisticated arguments we can simply know as a properly basic belief that materialism is wrong. Actually, I have become disenchanted with typical Western rationalism and intellectuallism, and think it ultimately leads to absurdity and insanity.
I reject materialism, physicalism, determinism, reductionism, and scientism, as well as the 19th century clockwork-universe determinism that is still popular among biologists. These views are ultimately incoherent, irrational, empirically refuted, and thus absurd forms of pseudo-religious faith, which is mostly based on sloppy argumentation, obsolete science, and shallow philosophy (esp. among internet infidels and the co-called "New Atheists"), and ultimately imply a deeply depressing nihilism.